Afterglow, Gone Cold

The day that my city was taken by captors
The same day I let myself be taken by you
Was it a mistake?
Well that’s one for the authors
The rest of us poets, we are just going to dream

I could feel the mistake the moment I laid next to you
Could feel the burden of the dagger between my thighs
You promised a beautiful night of adventure
Then made it more painful than a jump from the sky

Now you got a problem I have friends to hang out with
You got an anger for me being free
You wish for me to spoil you with riches
And I wish for my innocence back

You broke into my heart, like a experienced thief
You’ve done it times before, for that I’m aware
You forced us into this mess, all I wanted was freedom
And now you blame me for always doing less

Seduction was one of my worst traits
Never knew what to expect from my body’s form
Yet it was the only thing that made you stay
The times I was sitting at the park on your lap

Stop dragging me down, now that is finally sunny
Stop raining on my happy parade
For once in my life, my arms are no longer striped
Why are you keeping pushing me to the rope?

Love potion, your poison
Filled my chest and thighs
I let you spill it wherever you like
And you had the nerve to say “I didn’t have a good time”
Well I never did either
You poisoned my liver with all your stupid alcohol
My heart was delivered to your shuttered home

Waiting for you feels like waiting for Godot
Waiting for the happy version of you, that will never come back
That trees were my only shadow as I wept
And you kept scrolling on your phone
I’m sorry you ever went near my roots
I’m sorry I let you so softly caress them
I’ll never truly know who truly was you
You killed off the myth, and left me with my ghosts