Am I In Love?

After gazing into your eyes
Nothing seems pretty anymore
Even the sunsets lost their meaning 
And galaxies appear so dull

After feeling the warmth of your smile
Nothing consoles me anymore
My father's arms are not as safe
As being in your presence 

After hearing the song of your laugh 
No melody invigorates me 
My ears reject the sound 
Of anything that isn't your voice 

After hearing your kindest words 
My mother's compliments sound harsh
For nothing can surpass
The sweetness of your gentle heart

After feeling the softness of your touch
My pillows give me headaches 
Have I become too sensitive?
or are you too kindhearted?

I never had a choice 
I'd carry all the burdens in the globe
I'd scream until I'd break my vocal chords 
To spend another second in your world 

But when you talk you never look at me 
And when you say goodbye it's never for me 
I'm renting a small square around your body 
I swear my life is over when i watch you walk away 

I wish that I was brave enough to chase you
I wish that I was strong enough to beg you not to go
I know if I was smart I would erase you 
Unfortunately I craved your name too deep inside my soul

No dictionaries are needed now 
To me you mean the world
I swear I'm not obsessed, my dear
That's just the way I love

My heartbeat is irregular 
The doctor says it's broken
Referring to my lonely heart 
The Rose's blooming rotten 

This all has left me wondering 
How everything is flawed 
How could the beauty of the entire universe fit in just one person

I never thought I'd reach this point 
To beg you on my knees 
I've never felt so desperate 
Oh God, am I in love?