Christine

I hope you’re as miserable as I am
That I haunt you relentlessly
That you see me at every turn
That I am inescapable
For me to be your greatest motivation and greatest heartbreak
Are you running towards me
Or are you running away

I am angry
It was unfair, unnecessarily cruel at times
Your methods of which I tried so hard
To always be understanding of
For weeks at a time
Your memory left a bittersweet taste on my tongue
Why couldn’t you just choose me?

Of course, I could never hate you
If only it were that easy
You put me second only to yourself
I’d do the same so how could I possibly
Stay mad about not holding you back

A chord that I can’t seem to conquer so I choose to play a different song
An unfinished painting that calls my name from the corner of my room
A joke you’d laugh at but I can’t share
A new experience I must have without you because
I refuse to put my life on hold

Holding onto you has been the most
Frustrating
You have given me too much to miss
I dream that you are rendered nothing more than
An aimless, lovesick puppy
That you yearn and ache for my gaze to meet yours once more
That you achieve all you set out to do
That you still think of me
Just as much as I you