Dharma of Love

You don’t bother with an internal fight,
You accept that this isn’t morally right,
But you stride on anyways toward him,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

A bare shoulder exposed with great care,
Doe-y eyes that make you look fair,
This isn't the person you wanted to be,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

A glass of regret will wash it down nice,
Chewed up cache to cover the night,
To back down now would make you a fool,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

He studies his prey with great caution,
Well-aware you haven't done this often,
You are willing to follow the lead,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

If you ignore your conscious it will fade,
It will be worth all the memories made,
They won't see your broken smile tomorrow,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

A single pause is the only chance you get,
You contemplate what you're willing to forget,
This might be a level too low for your type,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

The tension begins to stab in your gut,
A knife never removed from its cut,
You make sure your jagged scar isn't visible,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

His gaze meets yours and holds still,
Evidence of his headstrong will,
You don't like to be the center of attention,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

You refuse to let this night go to waste,
You put on the appropriate face,
Unable to remember how you first found it,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

Without a word you take his hand,
A quick look for a wedding band,
It wouldn’t be enough to hinder your plan,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

He follows your steps back to the room,
Fearful of the things he's bound to assume,
You don't want to be seen in the light,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

Being in control is a breath of fresh air,
You ponder abandoning him there,
The present is bigger than your future,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

Tears stain your cheeks without feeling,
You study his moans for what their revealing,
Concealing your emotions is easy,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

At the peak of climax you dig in your coat,
And sketch a straight line upon his throat,
There's nothing lonely about being alone,
That's what you've been insinuating
All your life.

You tie tight knots with crimson sheets,
Open the window to the waters beneath,
You try not to draw any suspicion,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

Through covered ears you hear a splash,
The weighted cotton sinks at last,
You know not to hang around too long,
That's what you've been avoiding
All your life.

You think up a new name equally sweet,
A face to match it for the next guy you meet,
They who control the present, control the past,
That's what you've been avoiding
All night.

He didn't deserve the justice you served,
You knew there was no lesson to be learned,
Actions motivated by your life's strife,
That's what you've been avoiding
All your life.