Fading dreams

Tu-tum, tu-tump; I hear it beat
Slow, but more fragile this time.

It's been over a year already, but
Still feels like a short while ago.

Empires I've built up in my mind, they crumble;
As this body grows feeble.

I can feel it now, my end drawing near
With each ailing breath I take, hapless.

My soul, hell-bent; this stubbornness, I fear
Just a façade

Flashes of my thoughts, I hold dear.
As tears spurt down my palely face,
I ponder

There are two choices this time;
I give up or fight.