I Can't Win

I want to rush things 
I want little effort
Because all my life I’ve been losing
And it’s both my fault and fate’s fault
So now,
for once,
Can I please win?

And when I look at who I think you are,
All I see is that one more thing I’m losing
That one more thing I can’t get right

I strive and I’m still trying to get things my way
I have 99 billion things I’m trying to get
I can’t include you in that 
It’s too much

I want to let you go instead
But maybe I shouldn’t
And I’ll just make an omelette 
For all the eggs life has been throwing at me

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