i was jealous they had phones

i was jealous they had phones
while my parents still said i was too young
i was jealous they had dogs
and i didn’t yet
i was jealous they spent their money on mermaid tails
and i was too afraid to make such a big purchase

i felt as though they had everything i didn’t

someday maturity would teach me
i had what they didn’t know to want
but what was worth more than all that i was jealous of