Rebirth

I don’t remember being born
But I do remember the way I died
Staring at my phone screen for too long
Till my heart gave away

I do remember the hospital bed
The nurses frantically running around me
As they prayed to god I got better
Yet, I never did

I do remember journalists outside the hospital
Willing to hear of my unusual story
Of a recently adult girl whose heart was too sensitive
And died from realising her dreams were over

My godmother came to my side, held my cold hands
A doctor herself did her best to bring me back to life
Yet heaven was much too inviting
I never wished to return.

I did not get into any university
My dreams were not coming true
Why would I live?
Did I have anything to live for?

My best friend got a new friend
More curly headed and shaped than me
I’m sure he would keep him company
I said to myself as the light got closer

My brother in law hands held my sister’s tightly
They were more in love than one could be
I scratched that off my list as well
As I bid them all farewell

I remember all the times I tried to ask for help
Yet none seemed to care what I had to say
Not even the ones I paid to listen to me
I was more alone than I thought apparently

I had no dreams or aspirations anymore
Since university closed its shutters to my shocked face
All I had to do was lay down and grab the angel’s hand
As it was lowered to my stone cold face.
I do remember the rebirth,
Though it wasn’t a thing to see.
I don’t remember the day I woke,
But I felt the breath of five angels inside of me.
Like roots breaking through the earth,
I rose from where I thought I’d died.
The hands that once held me down, even of the Angel
Now lifted, guiding me to the sky.
I remember the quiet whisper in my very own ears, one that made me shiver
Of hope that found its way through.
It wasn’t loud, it wasn’t forceful—
Just a soft echo, subtle and true.
My heart, once fragile, found its beat, and I almost fell of my own feet
In places unknown, in faces I’d yet to meet.
The dreams that seemed so far away,
Started to return, in a brand new way.
I wasn’t born, but I was made anew,
In the silence of pain, I began to view
The light beyond the dark,
Where love and life could leave a mark.
Now, each breath is a second chance,
A dance I’m learning, a slow advance, no partners this time, just you and I, my love
I no longer ask if I have the right to stay—
For now, I know my heart has found its way.

No more waiting for the light to fade,
As I’m the light that is here to stay
For in the shadows, I was remade.
A love, a life, a soul revived—
Now in my hands, I hold the sky