A Silent War

You fueled me up,
Like I was a car in your garage.
But I'm not inside anymore,
you always told me to think outside,
of the box.
And Showing me how to be a leader,
does not work if you cannot follow.
So just because you taught me how to be strong,
does not mean you were.

Blinded by illness,
you kissed the inconspicuous judge,
who decided your fate,
that only forever would have known.
It held you captive,
intensifying malignancy,
a tumor would have been better,
it would have killed you sooner.

You taught me to be the heart of a storm,
because you didn’t know how to swim.
You were already stuck in the waves,
when I searched for you under the water.
It was no accident,
that you left with a choice of fight or flight.
And if you told me your air was getting thinner,
I would have breathed for you.

You were an adult,
taking candy from a baby.
I wish you would pick yourself back up,
off the horse you raised me to follow.
If you told me your happiness was expensive,
I would have gave you all change in my piggy bank. And when you deny it,
I will walk away.

You screamed of resigning,
from behind your closed door.
And if I heard,
I would have let you hold on to me.
I’ve seen it take 3 lives.
You were a pacifist,
in a silent war.
You should have dropped the knife.