A Hole In My Heart

I have a hole in my heart,
A peanut sized hole,
Birth defect is precisely what doctors said;
As if God poked his little finger for fun
or stubbed out his cigarette on my heart,
God knows…
 
I have a hole in my heart,
Doctors think that I will die if surgery goes wrong;
Little they know,
I died already the day she left me.
I have a hole in my heart,
Much bigger than the previous one;
A human face sized hole!