They say the past stays in the past for a reason.
Thinking far back will be committing Treason.
You swore an oath to protect yourself.
Your own well being.
To keep yourself out of harm's way.
But
A Free Mind Wonders
Even to this day.
I walk in the streets like a MAN
Because I was nourished by his
Right. Hand.
A mothers love never carried me.
A Free Mind Wonders
What would it be like as a whole?
I am only half of what I am meant to be.
My childhood fades away into oblivion.
Trapped.
In Hatred. Bewilderment. Guilt. Envy.
Poison
Filters my blood stream.
I laugh believing this is the end.
How could you watch someone you love perish?
For years I’ve been trying to grasp the understanding of abandonment.
But I never came to any conclusions.
When I was a little girl all I ever wanted was a family.
I cried until Tears weren’t enough.
I grew depressed until I was NOT immune to depression any longer.
"I slept outside for hours on a cold bench right next to the homeless, until I grew tired of being alone."
From that point on I knew you wouldn’t come for me.
A Child’s song is a Dove’s Cry
But
Not even my heart could witness how much I love you.
Free Minds Wonder
How to become a better person than the one that left them behind.
I Am Not Alone.
For the Little Black Girl in me has learnt
How to fly all on her own.