Member Poem

It sounds so simple to forgive... to let go of the resentment and anger that's there every day you live. And yet simple is a word I would never use to describe it. How hard forgiveness is every single day, is bullshit. Now, I know to forgive someone is for you and you're soul. After all if you don't, is it possible to really be whole? What bubbles below the surface every time you breathe... well that my friends is why the trust we once had we grieve. When someone asks for forgiveness it's because they've caused you pain and had the audacity to put your relationship through hell like strain. It's nearly impossible to forgive what has been done, when a person you love hurts you to the core, it seems so much easier just to run. I may sound green but it's so unfair! They just have to learn from a mistake, while I feel the pain every day, it's always there. How do we move on if I can't ever fully forgive? Life is so short, how long must I wait before I can once again begin to live? Part of the long journey is remembering just how good things once were. And holding on to a shred of hope the goodness will come back, but never being sure. I guess all we can really do is hold on until we cannot, all we can do is keep going until we've given all that we've got. Forgiveness will be the longest quest in this life of mine, and like so many things I'll only know if it's truly possible in time.