Member Poem

You close the gap that separates our lips,
supposed to be sweet but I just feel sick.
I wish I was normal so I could enjoy your love,
why does even the slightest touch feel like too much?

It's not your fault. I've always been like this,
have never been able to share a sweet kiss.
I like you though I'm sure it won't be the same,
as if you had someone else to play those little games.

Because there is no flame lighting up my heart,
no embers that kindle even the faintest spark.
I know it may not seem like enough,
but i'll love you as much as i'm capable of.

I don't want to lose you but you're so impatient,
you tell me i'm cruel and that my heart is vacant.
But I cannot control the way that I feel,
I need to take things slow, everything just seems so real. 

These touches, these kisses all feel like too much,
Why do I feel this way? Why don't I feel love?
And I know to most people it won't seem like enough,
but i'll love you as much as i'm capable of.