Member Poem

One day I hope to feel ok,
I’m here praying on this stage.
Waiting for the day, I just wanna feel ok.

MDMA made me feel ok, just waiting for the day I’ll get to feel sane.
Waiting on the day to get back in my lane.
For now I’m just grinding for my fame.

Weed made me feel better, just a temporary solution to a problem that lasts forever.
A little bit calm to a flame that lasts forever.
I’m just grinding for my fame in hopes to feel better.

Lean made me feel doped, just a little box to put my little hope. My little hope left in society and my head. One day I want to be living with new hope in my head.
I’m just grinding for my fame trying to be sane.

Henny made me go back, back when I was only a fan yelling from the stands. Took me back to days when I was only a fan. Maybe a part of me wishes I was still just a fan.
I’m just grinding for my fame in hopes for a bigger change.

MDMA, Weed, Lean and Henny were just temporary solutions to problems I fight everyday. One day I’ll be ok but I’m afraid it’ll be too late.

How do I delete myself? one day at a time slowly dying into a massive grind. Throwing away my time for something that was never mine.

My mind was playing with my time when I needed to stick to my grind. Never feeling fine, it's just easier to grind. 

Gotta think of the bigger picture while everything around you is getting slicker. The bigger picture got us through it all from being thrown into the wall to being lied to by mom.

Not knowing if your ok is killing me every day. Making me stay awake and stay fighting everyday. One day I hope to know if you're really ok or if you gave up your old ways in the name of vain.

I’m tired reliving our time together everyday. I just wanna wake up one day and know that you're ok. I’m tired of being stuck in this pit of pretending to be ok.

One day I won’t be waiting for your calls. I won’t be sitting around listening to songs that remind me of you in every way, every single day. I’m tired of feeling this way. I just wanna know if you're ok but without you I don’t feel the same.

One day I hope to feel ok,
I’m here praying on this stage.
Waiting for the day, I just wanna feel ok.
Temporary solutions only temporarily numb the pain.