Member Poem

In my head, it's chaos, racing, loud,
A thousand thoughts scream, none are allowed
To quiet down, to settle, to sleep,
The noise never stops, it's a mountain too steep.

I want to do the things I love, I swear,
But today, my body refuses to care.
Lazy, lazy, lazy, the thoughts in my mind,
But it’s not laziness, it’s paralysis I find.

I wish for energy, a spark to ignite,
But the will to move stays locked out of sight.
The laughter, the singing, the joy that should be,
It’s all waiting, but nothing is happening in me.

The hours slip by, and the day fades away,
Still sitting, still waiting, no words left to say.
I scroll through the feeds, trying to act,
Trying to do what I know I should, but I’m trapped.

In my head, it’s busy, a storm no one sees,
They just see a lump, a person at ease.
Oh, how I wish they could know the fight,
The battles I face in my head every night.