Free Minds Wonder

They say the past stays in the past for a reason.
Thinking far back will be committing Treason.
You swore an oath to protect yourself.
Your own well being.
To keep yourself out of harm's way.
But

A Free Mind Wonders
Even to this day.

I walk in the streets like a MAN

Because I was nourished by his
Right.            Hand.
A mothers love never carried me.
            A Free Mind Wonders
       What would it be like as a whole?
I am only half of what I am meant to be.
My childhood fades away into oblivion.

Trapped.
In Hatred. Bewilderment. Guilt. Envy.
Poison
Filters my blood stream.
I laugh believing this is the end.

How could you watch someone you love perish?

For years I’ve been trying to grasp the understanding of abandonment.

But I never came to any conclusions.

When I was a little girl all I ever wanted was a family.

I cried until Tears weren’t enough.

I grew depressed until I was NOT immune to depression any longer.

"I slept outside for hours on a cold bench right next to the homeless, until I grew tired of being alone."

From that point on I knew you wouldn’t come for me.

A Child’s song is a Dove’s Cry

But

Not even my heart could witness how much I love you.